Poppy – bleachy, gap-toothed girl picking the stalls at South Bank, sunning her milky gams on the grass at Saint James Park. We trundled out to Oxford in a carriage like an armpit. She told me she dreamed of cliff sides on Highway One. Me, I dreamed about her— what it must be like to lace fingers in a fuck, to have a fight, to get so close We stop seeing each other completely. But with each train lurch I felt my shackles keenly. My hand kept to its own knee. Oh my, what tired bollocks, this love song mush, microwave passion replaced, week later, by some other horny stuff. Forget Poppy—the point is this— There’ve been so many Poppies they’ve come to settle thick like silt inside a bottle. These days, I have to hold my head just so lest an idle thought (Oxford) shakes it all up again, turns whole days into a mess of mud and water.
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